My empire consists of Music, gaming, and content creation, but music is now at the forefront. Though not at the heights I feel I should be at, I think music is the most comfortable way of expressing myself, more so because I can “hide” behind the music as an artist. Let’s talk about it
‘On My Way,’ a 2019 track that started my journey (officially). “On My Way” was when I started my trip to a place I could call home. For a long time, I never knew what I wanted to do with my life. Once I found marketing and music I knew I could start trying to “live life,” so eventually I can “come home.” The word home in this is a metaphor for a place of happiness and belonging. Two things I’ve struggled with throughout my life.
Before the official release of On My Way, I had been dabbling with poetry, which led me into rap, which is crazy because I’ve always been terrible with putting words together up until that point. Seeing over 90k streams on Spotify to date, and this is my debut release made me start honing my skills and focusing on music.
“Relationships… yeah. One of those aspects of my life that never really fucked with me”
– OSI
One thing I do want to start implementing more in my music is features. Being and feeling alone for so long I almost feel like I have to do everything myself, and also the fear of asking random people, but I’m stepping out of my comfort zone this year.
My next song needs a feature. It’s something a bit more raunchy, which is something I’ve never attempted before (another thing out of my comfort zone). I’ve been trying to look for some female rappers online, which I’m going to reach out to once I’ve recorded everything, and just as an exclusive the song is going to be called “Naughty Forty/40” (I don’t know whether to use words or number), but one thing I do know it’s going to be another smash hit.
One thing that stands out in my music, especially my projects is the theme of love, relationships, or just me talking about the opposite sex in some form, and it’s been a theme in my life (mostly in a negative light). Relationships… yeah. One of those aspects of my life that never really fucked with me. A constant theme in my life is they always end up leaving me and regardless of anything the common denominator is me. It has been more difficult to deal with in my life simply because of how it was for me growing up and the constant negative view of others. When for most of your life your surroundings constantly push the notion that there’s “something wrong with you,” it’s tough to get that out of your head. Ultimately, I just want to be and feel loved, and I do feel the inner child within me is craving the love he never got no matter how my demeanour comes across, which is also why it’s incredibly prevalent in my music.
I’ve recently just started therapy (yesterday actually) and hopefully I can do some work on that. As of right now, I’m just trying to do the best I can in my relationship now.
“Making music is so easy for me, but I have been consciously trying to make different subject matters that aren’t about women or some relationship in any capacity. I want a true diverse catalogue for different moments in life”
– OSI
Making music is so easy for me. Still, I have been consciously trying to make different subject matters that aren’t about women or some relationship in any capacity. I want a truly diverse catalogue for various moments in life. Rap/Hip-Hop as a genre is very braggadocious, but I also feel that; I’m not completely there in my life so I would be lying. And two, it’s boring.
How many “bitches can you fuck” and “money you make” to the “how good your pussy is” till there’s no more. Just a continuous cycle of bullshit. Don’t get it twisted, I like a bit of bragging and “ratchet” shit, I’ve even done so myself in a few songs, but there just seems to be an oversaturation of bullshit. There are so many layers to life and people, and it’s not all glitz and glamour. More so a reason why I want to make different subject matters is because I feel you’ll gain more respect from the average listener.
Growing older has taught me to listen to my body much more and sometimes to go completely against it. I’ve noticed changes in where I feel the fire in my life. For instance, like the club, I think it’s boring now. I wouldn’t mind more so if I had been vibing with people for a while beforehand because it’s almost like a “fuck it” thing. But you can’t jump-start me to the club. An immediate no. That even goes with alcohol, I’ve turned into a wine guy lol. I can’t do much of the heavy stuff anymore, the body doesn’t agree with it.
“I’ve always said the greatest humans ever to touch this earth are the ones who live a life that exceeds their own. That’s the type of life I’m trying to achieve”
– OSI
Another thing that has grown since growing older is the pressure to elevate in my life. I know in this life we live you can only truly “live a dream” when you pursue a life that isn’t of the norm. Our parents have a survival mentality, but I want to live. Yes, get a job and be able to sustain yourself, but for what? Just to die at the end? What is the purpose of that?
I will be 28 this year and have this huge urge, drive and passion to do well in this life before I die. I’ve always said the greatest humans ever to touch this earth are the ones who live a life that exceeds their own. That’s the type of life I’m trying to achieve.
I know age is just a number, and everyone’s journey is different, but I just want to see progression in this life I’m living, and I’m getting to that dreaded 30 where we “should” have some sort of something going on for ourselves, but I feel so far from that. One question I pose is what I must show for my life. I still haven’t been able to answer that question…
I guess that is where being grateful comes into play because best believe I couldn’t use my legs for whatever reason that would be the only thing I would think about doing. And for many of us that’s something normal we don’t even think about, which we could take for granted. I don’t know… It’s just hard for me to celebrate the little things and maybe because those things were never celebrated in my life and big milestones are the only things I can see as a cause of celebration or progression, but hopefully this is something I can work on through therapy.
“You have to be selfish when it comes to this, you can’t let anyone stop your momentum. I’ve seen people get on, and fall off just as quickly. Best believe when I get on, I’m going to continue like a steam train”
– OSI
You have to be selfish when it comes to this, you can’t let anyone stop your momentum. I’ve seen people get on, and fall off just as quickly. I believe I will continue like a steam train when I get on. I’m just focusing on the now and taking things one step at a time. It’s a challenge, but I can always return to my belief that I will make it. It’s just a matter of time.
